Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Resolutions for 2010

I have two resolutions this year.

#1) Believe in myself.
Putting myself into my work, into my words, and into my relationships is so hard for me because I try to please everyone. I assume that they won’t like what I have to offer, and I fear their disapproval or disgust. This resolution is a wide-reaching one, requiring that I
stop looking for outside approval
start saying/making/doing what is in my heart
value my own thoughts and efforts.
Simply making this resolution has caused a change in me. Whenever I catch myself feeling negatively about myself, I reaffirm this resolution. Each morning Ray has me saying a statement that fulfills this resolution. And whenever I am wavering, about to lose my courage and wimp out, this credo will be my guiding star.

#2) Take things one step at a time.
Right now it’s taxes. And getting my ridiculously awful business records in shape. And cleaning/rehauling my studio. And figuring out an Etsy shop. And designing new pieces. And casting new molds, making new pieces, testing new glazes, applying for new shows—

You get the idea.

Every time I start hyperventilating, I stop and identify what the next step is for what I’m doing today. I have the rest of my life to become a super-awesome expert; it doesn’t all have to happen this month or even this year. Yes, it’s a complicated lifestyle full of challenging tangles to unravel and huge tasks to complete. But like Jordin Sparks warbles, the only way we get there is one step at a time.

It helps that I LOVE that song!

If you have a resolution attached to your artistry this year, let me know in the comments!

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